Not For You . . . But For Me !!

The wait has been long and I am glad I am waiting...coz I want to wait...I want to wait till it hurts...till it tears me apart...till I realize that you are gone forever...and you will not come back...

I NEED to sit here for hours today, getting shamelessly drenched in the rain, staring at the empty road that used to bring you here everyday, not for you, but for ME...to let this feeling sink in...to let the pain take its toll on me.

I WANT to remember this time, this place, this suffering always...I want to stay some more here... I want to wait some more here...wait until I lose hope of seeing you again.

I will wait until the tears cut through the strong walls of my heart and scream it aloud that you'd never come back.

Let me wait for one more minute, some more seconds...let me suffer a little more... not for you... but for ME.

I will go back home today, with a broken heart, with as much despair as I can, with as much pain as I can hold...so I'd never regret not waiting for you enough... not for you...but for ME.

Let me wait some more... some more... until the soul is completely shaken....not for you...but for me

 
Note : I donno how much sense it makes to anyone...It is NOT a poem...It is NOT a planned post....I really donno what it is all about. :) Don't ask me. Feel free to HATE it :D